A Sonnet

Co-incidence is a mere conception of uncertainity

Awful and Awsome

Was just thinking how some words are formed in English vocabulary. What gets into the mind of the editor, to include such words.

Like, Awful and Awsome. They are paradoxial words. Even when when they're spelled. Ful(l), the word normally used when we are at content, satisfied and to an extent, happy. But when added with an AW expression it becomes entirely negative. It was an awful(l) decision, it tasted awful(l).



While Some is a word with an expression of less, little, not complete. When things are less than wanted, when we have little to laugh, little to give, it gives an impression, a bit more would have been good. Yet when AW is prefixed to some, the feeling entirely changes. It was an awsome night. We had an awsome time during holidays. Awsome, a word with entire line of satisfaction, happyness, enjoyment and thrill.

Past few months - A welcome change

Life has been quite uncertain now a days, for whenever I want it to be the way, it suddenly changes. I guess it happens with everyone on this earth. For past few days some unexpected turns have surprised me evenly. Getting a new job(well its almost 6 months now), meeting the old pals, getting into film making(which i love it thoroughly), visiting few exquisite locations on sundays. This might seem quite normal for the people who are actually able to follow such routine, but for me its change all together. Till Dec last year, I could never imagine engaging myself in such extra-curricular activities whole heartedly. I have been on working spree since last 5 years now and this is a welcome change.

The first start i could make in my passion of film making was in June'08 when my superieor motivated me to plunge into that. Attended the workshop for a week and that changed my perspective towards the world from the eye of a camera. Each moment, I feel like capturing it on the reel and store it which I think can be utlized at some stage or the other. Birds taking their first flight to the doodhwala taking the canisters on the bycycle. Grandpa taking a walk early morning to the Sabjiwala(in fact wali) getting on with the business in my street. People on the signals ready for the office to the sign in sheet in my office. The day spent with the colleagues to the begger who raises the hand for a penny during breaks. Chatting around by the day's end to the comfort of the cushion on bed, every moment I feel like capturing it. These moments as they pass are never going to be relived but only if they can be recalled that way. Practically, that's impossible but I wish if that can be done. .

Have made few wonderful friends which I never expected they would be in my friend's list. Got a wondeful opportunity to discover few people who tend to think of uncertain ways to attain their goals and they are least bothered about what the world would say. I give a damn sort of attitude eh! Meeting old pals the way I never had, brought them more closer to me. To elaborate, I went to Pune post diwali, which to my view has been one of the best trips of my life. The best part was when he made me feel at ease and the time he spent with me. He literally ditched the office for 3 days, and just for me. Now who would do that for someone other than a friend. We roamed around almost every hour of the day, went to pub on Saturday night and we enjoyed it thoroughly. He gave me a call few days back saying he enjoyed an evening after quite a long time. Well that's what friends do whey they are together, ENJOY. We did have a ruffle on the last day, where he thought I was not allowing him to speak his point on certain discussions and BANG came the noise when he hit the tank of his bike. But the very next moment we had wonderful sandwich with another friend who was with us at the pub. Played a game at the MALL and got the T-Shirt from the friend which he won. A selfless act - friends always do it. We took all the pictures we could and recorded few clips which I tend to include in my ARTWORK.

Not to forget I visited the holy place in Pune (FTTI - Film and Television Training Institute) for me which was an eternal experience. Saw the Prabhat Cinema, one of the oldest studios in India, which is now a part of FTTI. Visited almost every nook and corner of the campus, right from the cafeteria to the locations where KAMINEY was shot. Surprised ! Yes, the marriage scene was shot in the compund of FTTI and even the Police station in the movie was the main building of FTTI.

Coming back to Ahmedabad didn't stop the chain of new experiences that I was going through. Went to Thol Lake early morning at 06:00 am just to have a look at the rising sun. Now, we would have seen the rising sun some point or the other right? Yes, we would have, but the view at the Lake was just undefinable. The waters were as still as the surface of the glass. As the light began to brighten up, few birds flocked in and others followed. Surprisingly we were not the only one at the location. Few photgraphy enthusiasts and few families were also there to experience the eternal breeze that flows early morning. Not to forget we did shoot various moments and clicked some wonderful pictures of the Rising Sun. Although the count of the avians was quite less, this is the best season people recommend a visit. Do see it before the Dec end.

Not to conclude, experiences doesn't stop at a particular instance and I am sure the same will continue through out the life.

What a DILEMA

The other day i was going through a book and one of it's line said,"To be perfect , no perfection required". A paradoxial statement that comes right flashing through the mind. The incidents mentioned were the one that we would understand, but yet there was a head on collosion with the thoughts penned down.

There's nothing bad in being perfect as I think of. We all strive to be one. But being perfect in attaining perfection is the matter of debate. We have our daily routines to adhere to. Like we get up and pray to god for the best day and the time to come. After all God is a perfect way to our dreams. But do we have a SOP for that or do we need to have one?

In one of the content that I was going through had a debate on how to worship the Almighty. I have seen people who define the ways to approach Him. Bow down, do not look into the eyes, stay on the knees, join your hands and ask gently. Well that might be the most common way how people relate to the prayers. And above all they do manage to prove it to be THE Perfect method.

I believe in respecting their method of interacting with HIM, Almighty for me is my friend. I love to say HI or KEM CHHO. Now that's where i slightly differ from "SOP". Now that a silly way talking with HIM or as it would seem. HE would not reply in words, but he has HIS replies , not through words but through the instances that happen around. I feel at comfort whent talking to a friend of that "STATURE" and ask for guidance while sharing my thoughts. I ask him how's he doing and ask for any updates. Any help that he'd require and so on.. The discussions are endless.

With the high regard and high respect for HIM, i still feel free to talk to him any time of the day cause friends do not bind us in time. At end of the day i feel at content having a word with HIM, and thats what even people want when they pray. Don't they? I would say "To be perfect( in approaching GOD) no perfection required"(Not necessary to follow the perfect method).

Apart from the content that was penned down in the article, there are many incidents, phenomenon, events that reach the conventional pardigm in the most unconventional ways. Many of them I can recall, many of those you can. I have incidents happening far away from me and some of them just next to me.

One more instance that I could relate to is how some people followed a Martyr with and unconventional approach of "SATYAGRAH", although revolting against the parasites with weapons was the most common attitude. Counting it from 1857 till 1945 WW-II, fighting back with guns was considered to be the perfect method of attaining freedom, for Independence is the perfect state of a country. Its just how people think out of a defined method to attain a state which is actually required and that's what Mahatma did and people followed. "To be perfect, (attaining Independence) no perfection required (mode of using guns to attain it)"

The instances that I see or relate are my own views. After all " To be perfect( in describing views) no perfection is required (how the view's are described).