Still I've got something to say!

Wait!

Just stay there, back for once,
Turn to look at me, for this instance,

These might be my, last words to you,

Still I've got something to say

The heart pounds hard, as I try to speak,

Want to say it straight, no twist no tweak,
For one thing you know, I won't hurt you,
Still I've got something to say

Those look in your eyes, makes me feel so odd,
I wanna let you know, just give me a nod
For I have been waiting for a day like you
Still I've got something to say

The tounge is freezing, all in the mouth,
The words are saying, no, to come out,
I feel, I wanna tell all this to you
Still I've got something to say


Is that the dust, or the heart that tears,
I'd wanna tell you this, like no body hears
My heart says, I should not look at you
My eyes says, I am not through with you
These are the last words, from me to you,

But Still, I've got something to say!

Friends in my Life (Part 1)

All these years I have been thinking that making friends is easier than breaking a glass. Which is again true I guess. However, retaining them has always been a question. Who wonders what lines fall in when two people agree to be friends. For the number of friends I have in my life, I believe myself to be successful in that forte.

People say its the quality of friends matter and not the quantity. I would slightly disagree. I have numerous friends for which my fingers would fall short. Every human being I have encountered, have probably become an integral part of my life. When a person is termed as a  friend, one cannot say he/she is good or bad friend. Like"I have the worst friend in my life." Although it can be the other way round. Like" The worst person in this world is my friend."

I have been lucky enough to find such wonderful people during these years. Right from schooling days, I have met people with like and unlike personalities. Nothing has bothered me much. For me they have been a parallel life-line. Some people say there are only 1 or 2 best friends a person can have. I would want to differ here too. Although not a dozen, I do have half a dozen people with whom I can share every bit of my life. ......

Lighting Up the Third Cigarette

"You do not seem, what I believe you actually are. You behave erratically at times when you are not supposed to. Why do you act absurdly when you know you shouldn't?"," I asked.

"I am not what it seems, what you actually believe. I behave differently at times when I am supposed to. I behave absurdly, when I know I should. After all its my decision to do so. Don't you think so?", He replied.

"But why do you do such things when you know you are not supposed to? How can you behave in a manner, which people do not expect out of you? How can you decide upon what you did was appropriate.?" I questioned.

"Given various situations, I am surrounded with many people. Some of them would know me, some of them won't. Some of them would expect me to react, some of them won't. But for me I act according to my past experience, which many people would not know. I am sure you would agree that experiences do play a major role when you are faced with the same situation in future."

"Let me share an example. I had a dialouge with one of my acquaintance some time back where we had a debate over a matchstick and the cigarette. Usually there's a belief that one should not light the third cigarette with  the same matchstick. I have seen people believe many other things as such which I obviously do not pay attention too. I believe one should not do things that they are not aware about. The only harm would be, you'll end up loosing." "But that was my belief and I wanted to defend it. So I said you should not do the things that you do not know the reason for."

"To which my friend asked, " Do you know the cat crossing phenomenon? Some people do not cross the road until someone else has done it after the cat crosses the road in front of you." to which I replied," But I still won't do things for which I have no reason." And the discussion took a different turn. All people standing there pounced on me roaring about various beliefs and rituals and traditions and what not. Every one started convincing me that I was wrong when I said I won't do the things for which I  have no reason. (especially lighting up the third cigarette and the cat crossing phenomenon). And then there was a weired example of  not having food during a solar eclipse. To which everyone stood concurrent. They were so emphatic about it that I almost lost my cool and was about to shout when one of my colleague noticed and signaled me not to do so. I still sticked to my word.Why should I believe in something for there's no logic to it. And the people standing there took a stand saying there are things that do not have logic.

I knew that was coming and that's why I said if there's no logic to it why to do it. That's where I guess you're asking why I acted weired? Right.

"All I asked was why do people avoid lighting up the third cigarette with the same matchstick."