I never knew !

I never knew I'd love like hell,
I never knew I'd do it well,
I was nowhere, before we met,
It was so good, I felt so great.

You made me smile, you made me laugh,
You were the one who felt my heart,
I could rest on, lookin your eyes,
Those dimple cheeks, those cuddly shys,

I never knew I'd love like hell,

I never knew I'd do it well,

Found solace, you held me round,

Shimmy eyes made me jump off ground

Chirpy sounds filled up the air,

All that time the world looked so fair

I never knew I'd love like hell,

I never knew I'd do it well,

But then how, what went so wrong?
You never told, nor banged the gong
Tell me what, I could not do
I's always there, you know its true,

I never knew I'd love like hell,

I never knew It'd be a farewell,

The beautiful time meant lot to me,

Didn't wanna tell, wanted you to see.

Next to me some days you were,
Far you are, wish I knew where,

You were my sigh
You were my soul,
Do you still know
I love you like hell

Moment of Truth

"She's so beautiful, so shy, so adorable. This is what I wanted for such a long time. When I first met her, we started off on a bad note. The bad turned out to be good as the days passed, and everything started to fall in place. Mind you she can be very stingy when money is discussed. Even worse when she plans to put you on the back seat, when she believes whatever she says is right. She dominates like hell and cares like a mother. She fights like a cat and consoles like a brother. What to say, girls are that way.

But inspite of all her traits, i still feel strong when I see myself with her. Its a wonderful feeling.  Time when I asked her was tougher than asking for a free fall form Niagara. But here I am. Finally getting married. To the love of my life." said my friend.

He knew that she'll marry him from the moment she said YES. Even after YES, he had different experiences which would have made him skeptical about his proposal to her. He described her as a fighting cat, but believed her as consoling brother. He got dominated but felt the comfort of a mother with her.

He used to ask often "mane kai thashe to nai ne? Koi problem to nai aave ne? I hope everything turns out to be good. Will our families accept us?". Although on a funny note, I could feel the turbulence in his voice. He knew the answer as YES and was aware about the outcome. He was not escaping it, nor he could wait for it. But when the day finally came he was on a thin line, where he could not actually believe getting married to someone. And that someone was the love of his life. A critical time on which much depends; a crucial moment for him. Moment Of Truth.

Well, I always thought of him as confident and ready to face problem sort of guy, which he is. However, when he presented me with these questions, although not startled, I was quite surprised. My perception of him as always ready for everything met the reality of a doubt, anxiety which a person like him could have. I guess, that was my MOMENT OF TRUTH.

Now that's something which we all experience everyday, every hour, every day. What does MOMENT OF TRUTH actually mean?

I would designate life as the moment of truth. You feel & understand it as it comes. Well this is quite weired but yet there is a logic..

When a perception meets reality, it means that we are having a moment of truth. It may be right or may be wrong, but the outcome of any activity is not in our hand. We can just guide or motivate the course. We do anticipate the outcome, but what actually comes in front of our eyes is the MOMENT OF TRUTH.  

There are many examples to it. A very basic example that can be quoted here is when we turn on the fan in a sweaty summer night. We believe that it's gonna be on, entire night and we could wander deep into our dreams. But suddenly the electricity flows out and our sweet dream is turned into sweaty reality.That the Moment of truth. The perception that electricity will never flow out, meets the reality of no electricity and the fan turns off. Remember,we prepare entirely well for exams with a presumed format, yet we find a different questionnaire in the hall?

Many a times we meet certain individuals with a pre-conceived notion, just because someone has defined that person in a specific manner. We interact with that person with that limited frame of mind and try to act accordingly. The view changes a bit if not completely, when we actually start knowing that individual. That's the Moment Of Truth.

The entire journey doesn't end at any outcome. Every event, every incident, every scenario that we face is a MOMENT OF TRUTH. Every time our perception meets a new reality.

So what's your MOMENT OF TRUTH?

I don't wanna be here

Yes, its true.
I don't wanna be here

The world out here, seems so cliqued,
The smiles on the faces, are out so dipped,
When I say hi, i expect back one
The faces that are, give back none,

Yes its true,
I don't wanna be here

Absurd are the ways, when people ask
More it gets, whenever I ask
Answers are all, that people want,
The answer I get, is always a taunt

Yes its true,
I don't wanna be here

Although being lone, would not help
Will be all by me, no one to tell,
That's better I guess, than being moaned
No single debt, no way to be loaned

Yes its true,
I don't wanna be here

I wish no sorrow,
I wish no pain,
I wish not to loose,
I wish no slain,

Yes its true,
I don't wanna be here

PAA !

PAAaaaa !................ HO HO


That's the dialouge used in promos for the latest Bachhacn movie, PAA. Now why I called it a Bachhan movie? All except Aishwarya have played a part. She's still known as  RAI as her middle name.  To start with, Jaya Bachhan, has rolled the credits at the beginning of the movie. An entire new concept of rolling the credits eh!


Abhishek Bachhan has not been forturnate enough to gain credentials post GURU, however, PAA would contribute a lot to his career. He plays a politician who runs around to mend the dirty image of Politics. Character can be compared to modern day's politicians. Dressed in white in almost every frame, he does portray an ambitious individual who really wants to bring upon the change in the society. 


And now, Amitabh Bachhan who has poured in his career of over four decades to portray a 12 year old boy who is suffering from Progeria, rare genetic disorder. Auro, is intelligent, happy, witty, young boy. He is a naughty school boy who throws all kinds of pranks at others but looks as old as a 78-year old man. Progeria is a genetic disorder which accelerates a child's age 4-5 times the actual. Although, not mentally retarded, the body organs and the external features portray the characteristics of an aged human body. Hence, his body is not suited to any childish activities like running, playing or eating spicy food. Auro lives with his mother (Vidya Balan) who is a gynaecologist and his grand-mother(Arundhati Naag), whom he calls, 'Bum' in the entire film. Auro does not know his father, (Abhishek Bachchan), who is a young, idealist, honest politician. When Auro meets his father, what starts is a heart-touching father-son bonding. Auro dies only to unite Amol (his father) to Vidya (his mother).Amitabh Bachhan is left to do all but experiments with the character of AURO. The portrayal of the AURO is so precise that Amitabh Bachhan is nowhere to be seen.


The story is not very complicated but the dialogues and screenplay are amazing. You may not laugh long in the film, but you will certainly laugh many times. After you come out of the theatre, you may not recollect dialogues but you will keep seeing a mind of a 12 year old in front of your eyes. Each character leaves an impression in your mind. Even the small appearance of Auro's friend Vishnu makes its mark. 


Director R Balki, hats off to you.