I never knew !

I never knew I'd love like hell,
I never knew I'd do it well,
I was nowhere, before we met,
It was so good, I felt so great.

You made me smile, you made me laugh,
You were the one who felt my heart,
I could rest on, lookin your eyes,
Those dimple cheeks, those cuddly shys,

I never knew I'd love like hell,

I never knew I'd do it well,

Found solace, you held me round,

Shimmy eyes made me jump off ground

Chirpy sounds filled up the air,

All that time the world looked so fair

I never knew I'd love like hell,

I never knew I'd do it well,

But then how, what went so wrong?
You never told, nor banged the gong
Tell me what, I could not do
I's always there, you know its true,

I never knew I'd love like hell,

I never knew It'd be a farewell,

The beautiful time meant lot to me,

Didn't wanna tell, wanted you to see.

Next to me some days you were,
Far you are, wish I knew where,

You were my sigh
You were my soul,
Do you still know
I love you like hell

Moment of Truth

"She's so beautiful, so shy, so adorable. This is what I wanted for such a long time. When I first met her, we started off on a bad note. The bad turned out to be good as the days passed, and everything started to fall in place. Mind you she can be very stingy when money is discussed. Even worse when she plans to put you on the back seat, when she believes whatever she says is right. She dominates like hell and cares like a mother. She fights like a cat and consoles like a brother. What to say, girls are that way.

But inspite of all her traits, i still feel strong when I see myself with her. Its a wonderful feeling.  Time when I asked her was tougher than asking for a free fall form Niagara. But here I am. Finally getting married. To the love of my life." said my friend.

He knew that she'll marry him from the moment she said YES. Even after YES, he had different experiences which would have made him skeptical about his proposal to her. He described her as a fighting cat, but believed her as consoling brother. He got dominated but felt the comfort of a mother with her.

He used to ask often "mane kai thashe to nai ne? Koi problem to nai aave ne? I hope everything turns out to be good. Will our families accept us?". Although on a funny note, I could feel the turbulence in his voice. He knew the answer as YES and was aware about the outcome. He was not escaping it, nor he could wait for it. But when the day finally came he was on a thin line, where he could not actually believe getting married to someone. And that someone was the love of his life. A critical time on which much depends; a crucial moment for him. Moment Of Truth.

Well, I always thought of him as confident and ready to face problem sort of guy, which he is. However, when he presented me with these questions, although not startled, I was quite surprised. My perception of him as always ready for everything met the reality of a doubt, anxiety which a person like him could have. I guess, that was my MOMENT OF TRUTH.

Now that's something which we all experience everyday, every hour, every day. What does MOMENT OF TRUTH actually mean?

I would designate life as the moment of truth. You feel & understand it as it comes. Well this is quite weired but yet there is a logic..

When a perception meets reality, it means that we are having a moment of truth. It may be right or may be wrong, but the outcome of any activity is not in our hand. We can just guide or motivate the course. We do anticipate the outcome, but what actually comes in front of our eyes is the MOMENT OF TRUTH.  

There are many examples to it. A very basic example that can be quoted here is when we turn on the fan in a sweaty summer night. We believe that it's gonna be on, entire night and we could wander deep into our dreams. But suddenly the electricity flows out and our sweet dream is turned into sweaty reality.That the Moment of truth. The perception that electricity will never flow out, meets the reality of no electricity and the fan turns off. Remember,we prepare entirely well for exams with a presumed format, yet we find a different questionnaire in the hall?

Many a times we meet certain individuals with a pre-conceived notion, just because someone has defined that person in a specific manner. We interact with that person with that limited frame of mind and try to act accordingly. The view changes a bit if not completely, when we actually start knowing that individual. That's the Moment Of Truth.

The entire journey doesn't end at any outcome. Every event, every incident, every scenario that we face is a MOMENT OF TRUTH. Every time our perception meets a new reality.

So what's your MOMENT OF TRUTH?

I don't wanna be here

Yes, its true.
I don't wanna be here

The world out here, seems so cliqued,
The smiles on the faces, are out so dipped,
When I say hi, i expect back one
The faces that are, give back none,

Yes its true,
I don't wanna be here

Absurd are the ways, when people ask
More it gets, whenever I ask
Answers are all, that people want,
The answer I get, is always a taunt

Yes its true,
I don't wanna be here

Although being lone, would not help
Will be all by me, no one to tell,
That's better I guess, than being moaned
No single debt, no way to be loaned

Yes its true,
I don't wanna be here

I wish no sorrow,
I wish no pain,
I wish not to loose,
I wish no slain,

Yes its true,
I don't wanna be here

PAA !

PAAaaaa !................ HO HO


That's the dialouge used in promos for the latest Bachhacn movie, PAA. Now why I called it a Bachhan movie? All except Aishwarya have played a part. She's still known as  RAI as her middle name.  To start with, Jaya Bachhan, has rolled the credits at the beginning of the movie. An entire new concept of rolling the credits eh!


Abhishek Bachhan has not been forturnate enough to gain credentials post GURU, however, PAA would contribute a lot to his career. He plays a politician who runs around to mend the dirty image of Politics. Character can be compared to modern day's politicians. Dressed in white in almost every frame, he does portray an ambitious individual who really wants to bring upon the change in the society. 


And now, Amitabh Bachhan who has poured in his career of over four decades to portray a 12 year old boy who is suffering from Progeria, rare genetic disorder. Auro, is intelligent, happy, witty, young boy. He is a naughty school boy who throws all kinds of pranks at others but looks as old as a 78-year old man. Progeria is a genetic disorder which accelerates a child's age 4-5 times the actual. Although, not mentally retarded, the body organs and the external features portray the characteristics of an aged human body. Hence, his body is not suited to any childish activities like running, playing or eating spicy food. Auro lives with his mother (Vidya Balan) who is a gynaecologist and his grand-mother(Arundhati Naag), whom he calls, 'Bum' in the entire film. Auro does not know his father, (Abhishek Bachchan), who is a young, idealist, honest politician. When Auro meets his father, what starts is a heart-touching father-son bonding. Auro dies only to unite Amol (his father) to Vidya (his mother).Amitabh Bachhan is left to do all but experiments with the character of AURO. The portrayal of the AURO is so precise that Amitabh Bachhan is nowhere to be seen.


The story is not very complicated but the dialogues and screenplay are amazing. You may not laugh long in the film, but you will certainly laugh many times. After you come out of the theatre, you may not recollect dialogues but you will keep seeing a mind of a 12 year old in front of your eyes. Each character leaves an impression in your mind. Even the small appearance of Auro's friend Vishnu makes its mark. 


Director R Balki, hats off to you.

A Sonnet

Co-incidence is a mere conception of uncertainity

Awful and Awsome

Was just thinking how some words are formed in English vocabulary. What gets into the mind of the editor, to include such words.

Like, Awful and Awsome. They are paradoxial words. Even when when they're spelled. Ful(l), the word normally used when we are at content, satisfied and to an extent, happy. But when added with an AW expression it becomes entirely negative. It was an awful(l) decision, it tasted awful(l).



While Some is a word with an expression of less, little, not complete. When things are less than wanted, when we have little to laugh, little to give, it gives an impression, a bit more would have been good. Yet when AW is prefixed to some, the feeling entirely changes. It was an awsome night. We had an awsome time during holidays. Awsome, a word with entire line of satisfaction, happyness, enjoyment and thrill.

Past few months - A welcome change

Life has been quite uncertain now a days, for whenever I want it to be the way, it suddenly changes. I guess it happens with everyone on this earth. For past few days some unexpected turns have surprised me evenly. Getting a new job(well its almost 6 months now), meeting the old pals, getting into film making(which i love it thoroughly), visiting few exquisite locations on sundays. This might seem quite normal for the people who are actually able to follow such routine, but for me its change all together. Till Dec last year, I could never imagine engaging myself in such extra-curricular activities whole heartedly. I have been on working spree since last 5 years now and this is a welcome change.

The first start i could make in my passion of film making was in June'08 when my superieor motivated me to plunge into that. Attended the workshop for a week and that changed my perspective towards the world from the eye of a camera. Each moment, I feel like capturing it on the reel and store it which I think can be utlized at some stage or the other. Birds taking their first flight to the doodhwala taking the canisters on the bycycle. Grandpa taking a walk early morning to the Sabjiwala(in fact wali) getting on with the business in my street. People on the signals ready for the office to the sign in sheet in my office. The day spent with the colleagues to the begger who raises the hand for a penny during breaks. Chatting around by the day's end to the comfort of the cushion on bed, every moment I feel like capturing it. These moments as they pass are never going to be relived but only if they can be recalled that way. Practically, that's impossible but I wish if that can be done. .

Have made few wonderful friends which I never expected they would be in my friend's list. Got a wondeful opportunity to discover few people who tend to think of uncertain ways to attain their goals and they are least bothered about what the world would say. I give a damn sort of attitude eh! Meeting old pals the way I never had, brought them more closer to me. To elaborate, I went to Pune post diwali, which to my view has been one of the best trips of my life. The best part was when he made me feel at ease and the time he spent with me. He literally ditched the office for 3 days, and just for me. Now who would do that for someone other than a friend. We roamed around almost every hour of the day, went to pub on Saturday night and we enjoyed it thoroughly. He gave me a call few days back saying he enjoyed an evening after quite a long time. Well that's what friends do whey they are together, ENJOY. We did have a ruffle on the last day, where he thought I was not allowing him to speak his point on certain discussions and BANG came the noise when he hit the tank of his bike. But the very next moment we had wonderful sandwich with another friend who was with us at the pub. Played a game at the MALL and got the T-Shirt from the friend which he won. A selfless act - friends always do it. We took all the pictures we could and recorded few clips which I tend to include in my ARTWORK.

Not to forget I visited the holy place in Pune (FTTI - Film and Television Training Institute) for me which was an eternal experience. Saw the Prabhat Cinema, one of the oldest studios in India, which is now a part of FTTI. Visited almost every nook and corner of the campus, right from the cafeteria to the locations where KAMINEY was shot. Surprised ! Yes, the marriage scene was shot in the compund of FTTI and even the Police station in the movie was the main building of FTTI.

Coming back to Ahmedabad didn't stop the chain of new experiences that I was going through. Went to Thol Lake early morning at 06:00 am just to have a look at the rising sun. Now, we would have seen the rising sun some point or the other right? Yes, we would have, but the view at the Lake was just undefinable. The waters were as still as the surface of the glass. As the light began to brighten up, few birds flocked in and others followed. Surprisingly we were not the only one at the location. Few photgraphy enthusiasts and few families were also there to experience the eternal breeze that flows early morning. Not to forget we did shoot various moments and clicked some wonderful pictures of the Rising Sun. Although the count of the avians was quite less, this is the best season people recommend a visit. Do see it before the Dec end.

Not to conclude, experiences doesn't stop at a particular instance and I am sure the same will continue through out the life.

What a DILEMA

The other day i was going through a book and one of it's line said,"To be perfect , no perfection required". A paradoxial statement that comes right flashing through the mind. The incidents mentioned were the one that we would understand, but yet there was a head on collosion with the thoughts penned down.

There's nothing bad in being perfect as I think of. We all strive to be one. But being perfect in attaining perfection is the matter of debate. We have our daily routines to adhere to. Like we get up and pray to god for the best day and the time to come. After all God is a perfect way to our dreams. But do we have a SOP for that or do we need to have one?

In one of the content that I was going through had a debate on how to worship the Almighty. I have seen people who define the ways to approach Him. Bow down, do not look into the eyes, stay on the knees, join your hands and ask gently. Well that might be the most common way how people relate to the prayers. And above all they do manage to prove it to be THE Perfect method.

I believe in respecting their method of interacting with HIM, Almighty for me is my friend. I love to say HI or KEM CHHO. Now that's where i slightly differ from "SOP". Now that a silly way talking with HIM or as it would seem. HE would not reply in words, but he has HIS replies , not through words but through the instances that happen around. I feel at comfort whent talking to a friend of that "STATURE" and ask for guidance while sharing my thoughts. I ask him how's he doing and ask for any updates. Any help that he'd require and so on.. The discussions are endless.

With the high regard and high respect for HIM, i still feel free to talk to him any time of the day cause friends do not bind us in time. At end of the day i feel at content having a word with HIM, and thats what even people want when they pray. Don't they? I would say "To be perfect( in approaching GOD) no perfection required"(Not necessary to follow the perfect method).

Apart from the content that was penned down in the article, there are many incidents, phenomenon, events that reach the conventional pardigm in the most unconventional ways. Many of them I can recall, many of those you can. I have incidents happening far away from me and some of them just next to me.

One more instance that I could relate to is how some people followed a Martyr with and unconventional approach of "SATYAGRAH", although revolting against the parasites with weapons was the most common attitude. Counting it from 1857 till 1945 WW-II, fighting back with guns was considered to be the perfect method of attaining freedom, for Independence is the perfect state of a country. Its just how people think out of a defined method to attain a state which is actually required and that's what Mahatma did and people followed. "To be perfect, (attaining Independence) no perfection required (mode of using guns to attain it)"

The instances that I see or relate are my own views. After all " To be perfect( in describing views) no perfection is required (how the view's are described).

I am still waiting?

Yesterday I was convinced that I would be the chosen one. The place I was hoping for was just not the ordinary one. It was one which would define the forthcoming alignment of the system that is getting newly formed.

Lot of thoughts were passing by the ridges of my mind. In fact everyone might be going through the same at some point of time and I am no exception. Although many subdued thoughts were drilling down, there were few of them which were just tickling my ribs.

“A new start with a fresh state of mind would be my new venture”, I thought. “I would want to instate the process which I had been longing to implement. It won’t be a dominated one and I would take along everyone with me. After all that’s what I had done all my life. This was one of the opportunities that I waited for eternity”. The thoughts elated me so much that I was almost ready to go ahead. And the time came too when the actual conversation happened. Everything was just falling into place.

Surprisingly few ideas were exchanged about how we would be taking ahead the deal and that made me feel more as a part of the system already. The discussion slowly moved towards a very much obvious section. “How my service would be valued”. They already knew how I expected it to be and they were quite sure about it. Even I felt happy and contended when we both settled with a near win-win situation. After all, who would make fuzz out of it when everything is going smooth. Or that’s what it seemed.

The course of the dialect was about to end on a happy note when I was asked for the final 5 minutes so as a prominent decision takes place. The only stuff that clicked that even after such a discussion, how something can be decided in just 5 minutes. However, the thought kept on rolling as 5 minutes turned to 15. Finally, after half an hour, It started feeling that the necessity is really high and that people are seriously considering for what I feel I was worth. It was just 10 more minutes after that, I was asked to wait till next day as they told that they are seriously thinking on as now how much they can value my induction into the system.

My white part was feeling how great these people are who took pain to inform me, but on the other hand, my other half with horns was wickedly smiling. It gave me creeps, for it would have felt that I was getting fooled again. But as always the guy with the ring on the head was more dominant and I finally agreed upon waiting for the next day for which they would need more time.

Still when I am writing this it’s more than 25 hours till time which I was asked to wait and am still waiting!!!

Food for thought !

Few things are impossible to diligence and skill. Great works are performed not by strength, but perseverance

Compassion - the way to be Happy

Man doesn't believe whatever happens to him for the first instance if it happens unexpectedly. However mere acceptance decides whether the outcome will sooth or scratch. Who would want to design such a route which would ultimately lead the person to be at content. Its none other than self who would judge that.

Many people say I live for others. It is true. But what matters is the extent to which the statement stays correct. I work for my family to get better living standards. I work hard because I want my nearones to enjoy the comforts which tend to add to their lifestyle. I slog all day to buy more cushions so that they sleep peacefully. I want to earn more cause my John uncle has more wealth and I want him to go down against my family. Few of these reasons might be logical, few might be irrational. But the truth is that they all stand correct from the perspective of an individual. And there's nothing wrong in it cause these are the objectives for almost every individual who just wants to do something for someone.

But how is that one does something for others. It is said," If you want others to be happy, practice compassion." The height of compassion will determine the level of slogging one would do for making others happy. A wonderful idea ain't it. Still few things involved are not visible when one does something for others. It takes no time when compassion turns into obsession which at times proves to be harmful for others. Thus OTHERS does not only include the near and dear ones but also who are around whose life might be affected. Its just that to whatever extent one does something for someone with all the obsession or passion, it doesn't have to hurt any other. The consideration for others feelings as our would determine the same.


"If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion"

Significance of Achievements

A SONNET - "the pespiration determines the significance of ACHIEVEMENTS"

The title "SIGNIFICANCE of ACHIEVEMENTS" may sound more content that people always want to go for.. But the word that states is not the only reason why people run after the same every moment in their life. Some do not understand the significance of it after achieving it and some just fail to understand the significance before attaining it. The definitions always vary from a situation to the acceptance of the outcome. Some treat it as the luck that followed and some just name it as the destiny that was due.

Its not just limited to those who determine it as the path of the wake..After all the wake cannot be formed untill there is a movement in the water. A specific speed, a specific direction also determines it. The considerable amount of height gained determines the beauty at which it shows up. Maybe !

The wake, the applaud doesn't stay for long. To continue the sight of being a reason of such a phenomenon the boat has to be in constant motion for the wake to stay alive. The flow is merely the driving force which again motivates to attain more and more. The addiction is so huge that nobody want to loose the track the taste of the tongue. Who says its bad. But its only if its self centric. Many just tend to eliminate the thought of an achievment that might be hurting some other heart which might be even close.

But who cares. And why should one. Afterall I live for my ownself. These statements often take prime position for the reason to achieve, for some to live. The mere moments of joy and sharing eventually turns to be a trauma or disgust for others.

However, the fact that still prevail is that the success or achievement is more or less directed towards ownself. Its the route that decides the quality.

The outcome may hurt or may elate, but is it significant without the knowing value for which it was achieved?