Things are getting a bit awkward around me. No else would be bothered about that other than me. There is nothing substantial that I am doing in my profession. Nothing at all in personal life. I remeber one of the poems that I wrote few weeks back. "Yes its true, I don't wanna be here", which was written out of a thought. But now, almost every word in it is coming true. For the time being, everthing in that part of my literature is coming alive.
"The world out here, seems so cliqued".
Everyone is getting along with their life. No hi no hello. It is a bit awkward. I am not used to it. Even if I say hi, it doesn't mean that they should fire back one. But once in a while is we all would expect. Being an outcast is the worst thing u can ever imagine if you are a human being.
"Absurd are the ways, when people ask
More it gets, whenever I ask
Answers are all, that people want,
The answer I get, is always a taunt"
Its getting absurd every second of my day passing by. I am being questioned on matters that I have already proved my worth. I am unable to ask certain questions to people who I still trust. I do not doubt their actions. All I ask is why such indifference? How can someone have a partial attitude such that you are no more interested to believe in their ideals? It seems so fake. Fake is it? I hope not. Cause if its true, it would be the last time I'd trust someone with my heart. But then, I look back at my last blog. Expectations! Am I expecting something out of someone or is it myself?
There's no expectation from anyone. Its just that I wish this phase to pass.
I wish no sorrow,
I wish no pain,
I wish not to loose,
I wish no slain...
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