We are not talking as much as we used to. I've partially sorted it out. Maybe he keeps his grudges and I keep mine. For the reason that I've been a close observer to his behavior, it has surprised me many a times. Learning and Laughter has been my major interaction with him. I respect him as a member of my family. But I am unable to position myself the way I want to? I've tried my best and its still not enough. At times, I think : Is he a person with a trait who doesn't bother much after his need is over or he forgets the moments spent together? I am yet to get answer to these questions and even conclude whether the question is right!
Still, the question remains. Why have we started refraining ourselves from each other? Is it my perception or is it what I'm experiencing? I believe both of us are quite aware about the situation, yet we do not intend to even highlight it. Strange are the ways when we talk to each other. We often throw answers at each other even before the questions are asked. I do not feel good doing so as later on it fills me with regret.
He often says that I am a very good friend in his list and it sounds good when I hear it. But I am yet to feel it. Even after his strange attitude and behavior, I could never think ill about him. Sometimes I try to, but fail in doing so. Maybe that's my trait. I forgive and forget. Many a times, I feel bad about him not because the way we interact but the way he treats himself. He illustrates certain ways which people do not expect from a person like him, including me. I wish he understands it soon.
I might be young to tell him all that but I wish him all peace and happiness. People ask me many a times as to how do I manage to be friends with him. All I do is just smile back. Honestly, I've no reasons why I do not want to be in bad terms with him. Maybe the corals do not blame the sea when the current is rough.
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