Why is it that I can feel her only in my dreams - Acceptance (Part-1)

It was the peak of Summer and wind was burning the epidermis to the core. I'was returning from the land of desert to my place where my parents lived. It was not a fun trip. I used to do the thing I loved as my profession, Training (which I still do by the way). Recession had taken its toll on everyone and I believe no one was left unaffected. People were getting jobless. The wind was too hot on me. I was recalling all that had happened over my tenure. It was an amazing experience. Yes, I was asked to leave although with no grudges, I accepted it. I knew I had done well. Well, beyond my expectations and that's what mattered me the most. I realized, that my power lies in accepting the way as they come and that moment onwards I stopped blaming others for what was happening to me. I am not being modest but that was a change that I managed within me.

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A month before that I got another amazingly shocking news. The love of my life chose somebody over me. Well, that was just the begining. She had guts to call me up and I had no words to question her back. My acceptance acted again. I received a call from her fiance. It was summer. I was suffering the heat on my skin and now the heat was burning me from within. I am sure you'd cry out loud. Most of them do. So did I. But with a difference, couldn't roll on my tears. How could I? Acceptance was still there. I was with my best pals on a vacation. And I was glad no body noticed that. Nor did I tell this to anyone. What difference would that make?

I came out of the hotel room and called up my mom,

"Hello, Peli gaandi ni sagai thai gai chhe! Ene congrats kai deje!

 "Pan evu to kevi rite possible chhe?

"E je kai pan hoi ene phone kari ne kai deje, tara paase number to chhe j!" I hung up the call. You'd wonder who would call up mom and ask her to congratulate the girl who just ditched you. Well guess what, I did that. Why did I do that? She was more close to her than me, in a real sense.

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I was driving while travelling through the desert. With all the thoughts that were running in my head, I suddenly realized that I was not alone. I was accompanied by a person. A friend of mine who has been around me for "donkey years". So then, I was driving and he was sitting next to me. He was talking, while I was thinking about what I had "lost" in past few days. And guess what, the topic slowly changed towards marriage. He told me that I should find a suitable girl and start thinking about settling down in life. He was not aware about what had happend a month back. I didn't even bother to tell him. I replied.

"Hmm, sounds like a wonderful idea. Mein to pasand karbhi loon, mujhe bhi koi pasand karna chahiye".

Believe it or not, but when I said this, my past experience evaporated and I was ready for a new begining. Since then, I've never thought of what had happened, untill today as I pen this down. You'd wonder why. Acceptance was the third traveller with us. Besides, I think this will act as a chapter in this storyline.