I woke up with a new feeling. That song, was still loud in my ears. It was an experience that I wanted to have in reality. Nevertheless, dream it was and dream it remained. It was a mixed feeling which I had. I knew that girl I saw, but was completely unknown to me. I was confused. But, I was glad about one thing,"Mujhe bhi ladkiyo ke hi sapne aate hai".
Next day was full of bliss. I felt I had seen something eternal. I am sure you'd think how eternal it can be. Par, yea baat wohi samajh sakta hai jisko pyar ka matlab pata chalta ho. Huh! I was smiling all day. Many of my colleagues noticed this.
They asked me the reason behind my unusual smile, to which I replied," Haaah!, ab kya kahu, mujhe pyaar ho gaya hai!"
One of them replied,"Yea to iska roz kaa hai, kisina kisi se to ise pyar ho hi jaata hai."
"Haan, haan mein to dil phek aashiq hoon na, aur phir tum kya jaano pyar ka hota hai.. Pyar is like..."
"Bas be zyada hawa mein mat ud... Kisse pyar ho gaya hain tereko?"
"Mujhe? Mujhe pyar se pyaar ho gaya hai.(I am in love with love)"
Everybody laughed.
My mohter on seeing the same smile asked,"Shu vaat chhe. Bau form ma laage chhe. Chhokri gami gai ke shu? Keto hoi to ena ghare jaine vaat kariye?"
"What? No its nothing like that. I am just happy today. Besides there are other reasons with me to be happy."
"Oh! eva to kaya kaaran chhe?"
I couldn't answer that and I blushed.
"Beta, I am your mother, ne hu taari Chhatthi jaanu chhu.(I know your sixth sense), tara maate ek navu maagu aavyu chhe keto hoi to aapde malva jaiye"
"Na na, eni jarur nai pade" I don't know why I replied that way.
"Em to pachhi tu ke tya jaiye."
I went straight to my room and wondered why did I say that.
---
I was just finishing to browse when my friend pinged me. It was quite a surprise for me. She had never pinged me late in the evening. We rolled on with regular conversation. And the topic turned towards marriage and spouses. Somehow, I was talking to her with a different feeling. I just didn't know why.
"These guys in the office, they are such dogs. Na jaan na pehchan, bas aise hi propose kar dete hai!"
"Achha kya baat hai."
"Haan aur kya? I mean abhi 1 din bhi nahi hua aur date ke liye puchh lete hai. Arey date pe aise kaise chale jaayein. Thodi jaan pehchan badhe to thik hai!"
"To matlab agar jaan pehchan wala ho to uska chance hai, kyu?"
"Haan haan, ofcourse, but, chance hai, final nahi"
"So then I guess, if someone who knows you and you know that someone,a date can be arranged right?"
"Umm.. maybe.. but I am not sure"
"Well what if that someone is like me?"
"Toh mein soch bhi sakti hoon"
"Toh phir sochh aur phir mujhe bata"
That was the most unusual way a guy would have proposed a girl. Was that even a proposal? Yea right!
"Kya matlab? soch aur phir mujhe bata"
"Matalab ke soch aur phir mujhe bata."
"You are not serious, are you?"
"Mein bilkul serious hoon." I was still wondering why I was saying this. I am sure the girls like to be proposed in a more typical manner or rather an unusual manner. Unusual! I guess this was one of the innovative style.
"But, yaar .... I mean, tu mazaak to nahi kar raha hai?"
Girls like to be loved. They want someone to praise them, in true sense. They always feel that they should be desired. And when somebody does ask,,, they feel surprised. They don't feel like believing what they've just heard.
"Nahi yaar, mein mazaak nahi kar raha hoon"
The conversation continued... and I asked her to think about it for few days.
"Take your time... But don't desert on the answer"
---
Few days passed without any conversation. She didn't revert on what I had asked for. I understood what she would have thought. However, I did not want to assume anything. This interval gave me a chance to ponder on what I wanted. All this time, I was still wondering why did I "propose" her. That was not even a proposal. Somewhere deep in my heart I was not convinced with myself. How can a person, someone like me, fall for someone without L factor. A dream is a dream afterall. Its not reality. I recalled many dreams during my introspection which had similar experiences. I realized I was not in Love. I cannot fool a person if I am not in love.
It was getting lot more harder for me to tell her that what ever I said was just by fluke. Sounds crazy doesn't it. I was ready to accept YES as an answer, but deep down in my heart i yearned for a No. My conscience was shaking me. She was my friend and I should not lie to her about it.
Maamu let jaa, teri to waat lagne waali hai. I was thinking of a way to find out how to apologize to her when.,
"Busy hai?"
"Kuchh Khas nahi"
"Baat karni thi, free ho tab batana"
"Mein free hoon, tu bol, mein sun raha hoon"
"First of all, I am sorry that I didn't talk to you for last few days."
"Its ok, I am sure you would have stuck somewhere between your work and family. So tell me how's life?"
"Remember you had asked for......So then, the date is final. Please reach there on time, rest I'll tell you once we meet. Baba aani aai la bhetaila paije, nantar aapan goshti karuya"
E hooo.. I was going to meet her parents, his kid brother and few other friends who were there with us in the school. Her family members were quite unknown to me, but I thought it will be an easy session as she's going to be there with me.
Haah! you'd say I am so mean. Ek baaju mana kar raha hai doosri taraf ladki ke rishtedaaron se setting mein laga hai... Well, what's wrong in it. After all it was marriage time. Her family members had chosen a groom for her. The date was final. I remember meeting her mother when we were in school and her brother was in my younger sister's class. Her relatives can definately take a helping hand from me.
---
So, it happened and it happened well. One fine day after the marriage we touched upon the topic where I had made this proposal to her. We laughed and laughed. Her husband joined in too. Oh by the way the name of the groom was Mr. Sachin Usgaokar.
In a way, my conscience saved me from loosing my friend. It made me realize the fact. Deep down I had a feeling. There is somebody else... It was about time I realized, WHO?
Next day was full of bliss. I felt I had seen something eternal. I am sure you'd think how eternal it can be. Par, yea baat wohi samajh sakta hai jisko pyar ka matlab pata chalta ho. Huh! I was smiling all day. Many of my colleagues noticed this.
They asked me the reason behind my unusual smile, to which I replied," Haaah!, ab kya kahu, mujhe pyaar ho gaya hai!"
One of them replied,"Yea to iska roz kaa hai, kisina kisi se to ise pyar ho hi jaata hai."
"Haan, haan mein to dil phek aashiq hoon na, aur phir tum kya jaano pyar ka hota hai.. Pyar is like..."
"Bas be zyada hawa mein mat ud... Kisse pyar ho gaya hain tereko?"
"Mujhe? Mujhe pyar se pyaar ho gaya hai.(I am in love with love)"
Everybody laughed.
My mohter on seeing the same smile asked,"Shu vaat chhe. Bau form ma laage chhe. Chhokri gami gai ke shu? Keto hoi to ena ghare jaine vaat kariye?"
"What? No its nothing like that. I am just happy today. Besides there are other reasons with me to be happy."
"Oh! eva to kaya kaaran chhe?"
I couldn't answer that and I blushed.
"Beta, I am your mother, ne hu taari Chhatthi jaanu chhu.(I know your sixth sense), tara maate ek navu maagu aavyu chhe keto hoi to aapde malva jaiye"
"Na na, eni jarur nai pade" I don't know why I replied that way.
"Em to pachhi tu ke tya jaiye."
I went straight to my room and wondered why did I say that.
---
I was just finishing to browse when my friend pinged me. It was quite a surprise for me. She had never pinged me late in the evening. We rolled on with regular conversation. And the topic turned towards marriage and spouses. Somehow, I was talking to her with a different feeling. I just didn't know why.
"These guys in the office, they are such dogs. Na jaan na pehchan, bas aise hi propose kar dete hai!"
"Achha kya baat hai."
"Haan aur kya? I mean abhi 1 din bhi nahi hua aur date ke liye puchh lete hai. Arey date pe aise kaise chale jaayein. Thodi jaan pehchan badhe to thik hai!"
"To matlab agar jaan pehchan wala ho to uska chance hai, kyu?"
"Haan haan, ofcourse, but, chance hai, final nahi"
"So then I guess, if someone who knows you and you know that someone,a date can be arranged right?"
"Umm.. maybe.. but I am not sure"
"Well what if that someone is like me?"
"Toh mein soch bhi sakti hoon"
"Toh phir sochh aur phir mujhe bata"
That was the most unusual way a guy would have proposed a girl. Was that even a proposal? Yea right!
"Kya matlab? soch aur phir mujhe bata"
"Matalab ke soch aur phir mujhe bata."
"You are not serious, are you?"
"Mein bilkul serious hoon." I was still wondering why I was saying this. I am sure the girls like to be proposed in a more typical manner or rather an unusual manner. Unusual! I guess this was one of the innovative style.
"But, yaar .... I mean, tu mazaak to nahi kar raha hai?"
Girls like to be loved. They want someone to praise them, in true sense. They always feel that they should be desired. And when somebody does ask,,, they feel surprised. They don't feel like believing what they've just heard.
"Nahi yaar, mein mazaak nahi kar raha hoon"
The conversation continued... and I asked her to think about it for few days.
"Take your time... But don't desert on the answer"
---
Few days passed without any conversation. She didn't revert on what I had asked for. I understood what she would have thought. However, I did not want to assume anything. This interval gave me a chance to ponder on what I wanted. All this time, I was still wondering why did I "propose" her. That was not even a proposal. Somewhere deep in my heart I was not convinced with myself. How can a person, someone like me, fall for someone without L factor. A dream is a dream afterall. Its not reality. I recalled many dreams during my introspection which had similar experiences. I realized I was not in Love. I cannot fool a person if I am not in love.
It was getting lot more harder for me to tell her that what ever I said was just by fluke. Sounds crazy doesn't it. I was ready to accept YES as an answer, but deep down in my heart i yearned for a No. My conscience was shaking me. She was my friend and I should not lie to her about it.
Maamu let jaa, teri to waat lagne waali hai. I was thinking of a way to find out how to apologize to her when.,
"Busy hai?"
"Kuchh Khas nahi"
"Baat karni thi, free ho tab batana"
"Mein free hoon, tu bol, mein sun raha hoon"
"First of all, I am sorry that I didn't talk to you for last few days."
"Its ok, I am sure you would have stuck somewhere between your work and family. So tell me how's life?"
"Remember you had asked for......So then, the date is final. Please reach there on time, rest I'll tell you once we meet. Baba aani aai la bhetaila paije, nantar aapan goshti karuya"
E hooo.. I was going to meet her parents, his kid brother and few other friends who were there with us in the school. Her family members were quite unknown to me, but I thought it will be an easy session as she's going to be there with me.
Haah! you'd say I am so mean. Ek baaju mana kar raha hai doosri taraf ladki ke rishtedaaron se setting mein laga hai... Well, what's wrong in it. After all it was marriage time. Her family members had chosen a groom for her. The date was final. I remember meeting her mother when we were in school and her brother was in my younger sister's class. Her relatives can definately take a helping hand from me.
---
So, it happened and it happened well. One fine day after the marriage we touched upon the topic where I had made this proposal to her. We laughed and laughed. Her husband joined in too. Oh by the way the name of the groom was Mr. Sachin Usgaokar.
In a way, my conscience saved me from loosing my friend. It made me realize the fact. Deep down I had a feeling. There is somebody else... It was about time I realized, WHO?
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